When it comes down to the energy that we carry on a day to day basis, I can’t help but discuss the burdens of our past, and how they can effect our present moment. Have you ever met someone for the first time, and you could sense their timid nature? It’s instictive for us as humans to do a basic read on any individual we meet for the first time. It’s a survival technique that helps us to distinguish between friend and foe. This is because we are intuitively reading the individual, their energy, their body language and mannerisms. What I like to refer as “culture karma”, is a state of being where our past defines our present moment. When you have been given such labels as criminal, addict, crazy, homicidal, or suicidal, we tend to carry those labels with us on a day to day basis. When we show up for job interviews or meet strangers on the street, that is the energy we are giving off. “Don’t come close to me, I am (XYZ).” This is where healing our wounds and forgiving our past is an integral part of moving forward.
When we carry these labels with us, it can effect our everyday life. Even years after integrating our lessons and becoming better individuals, carrying this burden can and will bleed out into every facet of our lives. It will effect our daily interactions, including being able to move forward in careers. Until we make peace with the fact that our past doesn’t have to define our present moment, we immediately break through the stigma and open doors to a new way of living. Yes, our past serves an important role in the definition of who we are at this given point of time. But I am speaking on holding onto the weight of negative titles that we carry on our shoulders.
For a very long time, I carried the title of “drug addict” on my shoulders. It was a weight that was extremely difficult to bear. When I met you, I knew you didn’t want to see who I was. You didn’t want to see the monster in my heart. I couldn’t live with that title, so who else could? This is when I had to learn that even though it has shaped me into the man I am becoming, it doesn’t have to be a life sentence. Institutions like to give us such titles to help put a general framework on understanding who and what we are. Some of these titles, however, carry a heavy stigma that can keep us cast into a corner that can be extremely lonely and difficult to get out of. Through healing my childhood wounds and integrating all of those aspects into the now presence, I am slowly learning that those titles don’t fit my current framework.
The important part of the removal of this title and energy is integrating a new title and a new energy. Now, keep it expansive, we don’t want to remove a limited title and replace it with a limited title or energy. Keep it broad and flexible. Something that will bend and mold to the creation of your new being. When you start to wake up, you will see how fast your beliefs can shift as you get closer and closer to your natural imprint. As your frequency rises and adjusts, so do your beliefs. So let’s not restrict ourselves to a category that won’t leave any head room for growth.
Who do you want to be? What do you want to embody? How does this new title feel? Is the jacket a little loose or a little tight? Do you have room to grow in this title, or is it setting you into a cramped framework? The beautiful part of recreating your reality, is that you can paint it however you want. Granted, not everyone will like it. It takes a new kind of bravery to stand on your own two feet and to discount the fear components embedded in a lot of societies DNA. I knew I was tired of living out the same monotonous day-to-day existence. I was tired of waking up, condemned to a life of misery and anguish because I had a fetish for putting needles in my arms. That is why I consciously choose to rewrite my story.